Maybe all one can do is hope to end up with the right regrets.

I'm honestly not left with much time.
It's around 40 odd days to MCEs and I've barely finished my homework for the weekends..... Not forgetting the crazy amount of revision that needs to be done by then.

Many at times I question myself if JC is the right path for me. All along during my secondary school years, I've always regarded JC as the only place I would go after my Os. I thought of myself as someone who doesn't have much discipline and I needed to go to an institution that would somehow be able to "force" me to study hard. Though choosing poly seemed like a legit choice for me back then (considering the subject combination I took in secondary school), I barely considered it as I didn't know what I wanted to study and I was afraid of having to find a job related to my course even though I didn't really enjoy studying it. Thus, the only suitable choice I had was JC.

Since secondary school, I've always loathed the idea of taking anything related to science and that explains why I'm in the Arts stream now. I was slow in learning science subjects because according to my brother, I question too much and I don't have any common sense(LOL)....

However, upon a few months of taking the arts subjects in JC, it dawned on me that I didn't enjoy the Arts stream as much as I thought I would.

There wasn't much requirements for students who wanted to take up the arts subject in JC. For instance, it is not required of you to have any Literature/History background in secondary school to take up these subjects at H2 level. You need not have a minimum of B3 for English language, and neither do you need to score a certain grade for your humanities subject. Basically, you simply have to show interest/be interested in the subject to take them up for your subject combination.
I guess this is exactly why I'm struggling so much.

As most of you know, I take up Literature at the H2 level and I must say, it is one of my biggest regret thus far. No doubt Literature is an amazing and interesting subject, but the expectations are crazy and the competition out there is even worse off. I always tell my friends how I enjoy learning Literature but detest taking it as an exam. It's true how they say that even with 10 years of compulsory English education given to us, we still aren't able to produce work of good quality as compared to overseas scholars in Singapore who barely took up 2-3 years of English lessons. I can't help but feel inferior as I am being compared to them, for I know that they will be my competitors in the A levels and I have to perform equally well to be able to enroll in the university I want.

Everyday I question myself: Why did I even take Literature in the first place?

If given a choice again, I definitely wouldn't choose Literature, regardless of it being a H1 or H2 subject.

Right now, there's no longer any room for hesitation and I should prolly focus on doing well instead.
I can only blame myself for being so insistent on my choice of subjects back then.

I really just want to get it over and done with.